Day 3 2012

Who I am kidding? Back to feeling like day 1, uncertain and anxious. Wasn't able to squeeze in any "spiritual" time today until bedtime because I overslept this morning. Didn't even use that handy, dandy trick of putting on praise music I so eloquently offered up yesterday. It's okay. God loves me just as much today as my best Christian day ever. Really. He does. You too. Like Toby Mac says- We lose our way, we get back up again, it's never too late to get back up again, and one day you're gonna shine again, you may be knocked down, but not down forever. As far as food goes...my tea kettle sits empty and lonely while I wonder why Daniel had to go and drink just water. Didn't he need coffee for caffeine or tea for warmth? Not in his day and climate. See, that will stop a whole other group from pursuing this special blessing from God. In general, it's the whole concept of sacrifice. Yeah, I want a deeper walk with God, but what am I willing to sacrifice? It's definitely a sacrifice for me to give up tea and my other close friend, chocolate. But even in struggling days like today, I see the Lord's hand at work answering a prayer request I sent up just yesterday. Right after I was lamenting that it seems like I have to pray for something for months or longer before I see an answer. And the Lord just smiles at me. He does that a lot. One thing that definitely helps is making a list of things I'm thankful for. See Ann Voskamp's blog and book! It's the best book I've read in a long time, measured by it's impact on me. I heard of one church that asked it's members to eat rice (and beans, I think) for an entire week as they thought about what the majority of the world survives on. There's nothing like an extremely limited (though nutritionally adequate) diet to make you very thankful for the explosion of taste resulting from black bean and salsa on a baked potato! So, anyway, that's all for tonight. I will only post daily until day 6, and then probably weekly. Thanks to all my loyal readers! (tongue in cheek ;) Here's a shout out to my friend Jenni I. Thanks for reading...